I’m up alone so of course I’m lonely. It always annoys me the particular people I feel the urge to reach out to when I’m feeling lonely. It’s some sort of psychological pattern. Hmmm. Well whatever the priming, I really want to talk to Liam. I guess talking to him somehow makes me feel connected. I feel safer contacting him under the guise of lust. It’s safe. I don’t want to admit I’m lonely. This is just selfish, I should let Liam be. He’s not there to comfort me every time I decide to stay up on adderall and get lonely. If I really loved him I would let him be.