My whole life I thought I had to live a life that I could present to myself at the end. Now I realize I have to live a life I’m pleased with. This is a new game.
Do you ever fear that your to do list will end, there will be no errands to run or chores to do, no projects to finish, to appointments to make. Then what will you do?
One day you will consider the very basis of your entire worldview and ask yourself ‘what if it’s all a lie?’
In order to determine whether there is anything we can know with certainty we must first doubt everything we know.
It is one of the basic tenants of logotherapy that man’s main concern is not to gain pleasure or to avoid pain but rather to see a meaning in his life.
I just don’t know if I agree with this. Is it really our main concern? Please thoughts anyone?
I write my thoughts with the sincerest hope that one day I will have earned them the significance to be read.
So I still have this low key existential crisis thing going on. I always had an ultimate meaning to point to to say “this is point of life.”, “this will serve ultimate justice”, “this is guiding everything and is making sure my life goes ok”. As I am no longer theist I do not have those comforting reminders. I’m afraid I’m slipping into nihilism. I just see everything as meaningless and accidental; a product of practical and physical explanation. I am interested in Stoicism and logotherapy but I am unconvinced. I am aware that I want to be convinced. I would absolutely love to be convinced of all of Catholicism for that matter. I truly would. I wish with all my heart that it was all true. I think it is so beautiful and wonderful. It is just all false. I suppose I will spend the rest of my life grappling with this one. Oh dear.